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If you are a young lover, this is for you. If you are struggling to make your place in the world, this is no roadmap but a boulder you can sit on and rest in your journey. If you find yourself walking a tight rope between practicality and idealism, this is no answer but a Pandora's box of questions you should never avoid. These thoughts would make more sense to you if you watched the 2001 crime thriller, Moksha by Ashok Mehta, starring Arjun Rampal and Manisha Koirala.  I remember when I fell in love for the first time. When my heart, body, and mind finally confessed and yielded like an overflowing dam. When I would often find my soul dancing in my body. I was intoxicated. I was convinced, and I am still convinced. No one can love like me. There is no one as crazy, as loyal, as smitten, as definite, as loving, as accepting and as powerful as I can be in love, in separation, in longing, in death.  Director Ashok Mehta had envisioned the same madness in the character of Manisha ...

-Art work by Ujala I saw a YouTube thumbnail featuring Simen Sinek and Trevor Noah with orange footnotes in all caps " IS SMALL TALK BETTER THAN LONG TALK?" . It was one of the days among other days. I was scrolling YouTube with some purpose I can't recall. I got lost again in the allure of algorithms, which always helped me forget my painful longings of inner realization for a good number of hours. It sometimes worked so well that it would help me hide from myself and my callings for days. I was always at loggerheads with my best friend on the issue of small talks. I saw no point in conversations if it could not make people truly express, and while doing so, reflect on what they just said and heard. Reporting that you had dinner and are gaining a bit of weight these days, is all nonsense. She would always counter how long talks can be meaningful only if they lie amidst several small talks. That not everyone has the luxury of time and space for such reflections, and it ca...